Thursday, May 29, 2008
donation option #2
Wednesday, May 28, 2008
donation option #1
Saturday, May 17, 2008
memorial info and donations
Wednesday, May 14, 2008
boxes of stuff
First, thanks so much to everyone who came out on Sunday to the west coast memorial for Mom, and especially to Alison Tassie for organizing and hosting. I'd never been to the Exit Theatre before but as soon as I walked in I thought, "oh yeah. this is her."
It was great to meet new faces and hear virtual strangers (among some very familiar faces) talk so poignantly about Mom and how much she impacted their lives. Her reach was great - we knew this. But Jenn and I were talking today, and we realized it's actually comforting to know that we're not the only ones walking around right now, wondering how the world is still in fact spinning.
So, among the guests on Sunday was a family that we have known for a very long time. The Arntsons lived down the street from us on Harmony Place for many years, and when we moved in Lenore (the mama) and our Mom became fast friends. They maintained their close friendship through many life changes, and before Mom moved to New York she asked Lenore & Dick to keep some of her boxes at their house in Morro Bay, near San Luis Obispo. They not only drove up to the memorial on Sunday (along with their daughter Shawna and her husband Don) but also brought six of Mom's boxes with them, to give to us.
Jennifer and I spent most of the day and night yesterday going through everything. We missed having Clancy here for that, especially since we ran across tons of our writings, artwork, photos, etc. that of course Mom kept for all these years. But we're saving stuff for him! Even more interesting than all of our stuff was the huge pile of letters we found. Mom was really close to her Grandma Ward (the original one!) and wrote her many many MANY letters over the years. When her Grandma Ward passed away, Mom apparently retrieved all of those letters from G'ma Ward's house and has kept them with her ever since. It was pretty great stuff and really made us feel more connected to her in a powerful way. She wrote letters from Pasadena, from Hollywood, from New York in the '60s, from Newport in the '50s, and it seemed like she felt a freedom to really be herself in those letters, no matter what. Pretty great.
So now we have lots more pictures of Mom, but having so much of her writing in our grubby little hands is just a gift we never anticipated. Don't get me wrong though - I love pictures! Attached is a picture of a picture - we're guessing it's from 1959 or 1960 and we love it! Dig the fish dress.
Also, for those who haven't yet heard, the official occupation listed on the Death Certificate: poet.
Wednesday, May 7, 2008
whoah st. james'
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
san francisco memorial
The St. James event on the 20th will be quite a different affair; some of you know that she had very specific wishes for her memorial service, involving mainly poems and music (including, in a last embarrassing-mom move, two that I wrote for her in my early twenties) and recordings of music that she loved. However, they don't so much allow recorded music at St. James, and they have certain prayers they like to say and verses they like to read. So the service in New York will be quite a bit churchier than we were originally planning, but we think it will be good to gather everyone together and send her off with a bit of pomp and hereafter. She wants us all to go to Jimmy's Corner, as well, but we don't think she realized that "all of us" is likely to amount to more than the 40 people that can fit in Jimmy's Corner, so we will have a little reception in the church basement first so that we can accommodate everyone. Diehards will meet at Jimmy's Corner later.
Edited to add: the Exit invite is here. It's open, and I'm sure I forgot people, so feel free to send it to others you think would like to be there.
one last call for a place to stay
Sarah is going to come to San Francisco this week. It'll be good to be with her. And finally, stay tuned for news about a San Francisco memorial or wake or whatever I manage to figure out--possibly at the Edinburgh Castle, where Mom performed a few plays back when she lived here.
Bah.
Monday, May 5, 2008
wake part 2
Saturday, May 3, 2008
today - reminder
My address:
59 East 3rd Street #5D, between 1st and 2nd Aves. Nearest subways: 6 train at Bleecker, F train at 2nd Avenue.
Also. We've been getting a lot of questions about donations in lieu of flowers, and whether or not Mom had a charity or organization in mind. We've not decided yet, as she didn't tell us anything specific, but we're thinking that something in the arena of the theater would be obviously appropriate. If anyone has ideas they'd like to contribute as we make that decision, they'd be most welcome.
Thanks guys. Hope to see some of you later. Much love.
Thursday, May 1, 2008
a funny thing happened today
Today I arrived at the job with food for 100 people, only to discover that...the party is not on May 1. It's May 31. So--if you're in the Bay Area, please come over tonight to eat food. It's 256 Hartford Street, from 5:00 pm or so.
I can't imagine a more perfect way to have people over to remember her.
official memorial set
Wednesday, April 30, 2008
new york unofficial memorial
she's gone
There will be a service in New York sometime during the week of May 23. Her remains are being donated to medical research, according to her wishes. If you're on the west coast and want to come to a memorial of some kind out here, let me know--I'll probably host something informal at my house, possibly in a week and a half or so. Sarah will likely have people over on Saturday sometime, but I'll let her post about that.
Love to all.
Tuesday, April 29, 2008
getting close
Other people have these months-long dying processes, or get diagnosed with alarming cancers and continue to live for many months afterward, but this has just been one horrifying downward, smoke-spewing spiral. We have all (including her) said since the beginning that if she can have her life back, we want that, but we don't want some endless-seeming suffering. "I feel like I'm turning into something else," she said to Sarah and me while we were waiting for the second spinal tap a few mere weeks ago. It's hard to face what's coming, though.
Visitors are still welcome, though the food mentioned in Sarah's last post might be moot at this point. Love.
Sunday, April 27, 2008
hard
Saturday, April 26, 2008
she's doing okay
Thursday, April 24, 2008
she's there
going to brooklyn
Wednesday, April 23, 2008
brooklyn hospice visit
Tuesday, April 22, 2008
hospice investigation
- she'd have her own private 12x12 room and a shared bathroom (one other patient)
- her stuff can be all over the room, just not taped to the walls
- visitors are allowed 24/7, kids of all ages included
- there's an outdoor terrace
- the ratio of nurses to patients is 1:8
- her doctor (no longer Pietanza, once she's in the facility - sadness) would check on her once a day, and she'd also be under the care of a dietician
- there are 4 floors of patients, with 50 patients on each floor
- The Bronx is really annoying and desolate and far far away
Monday, April 21, 2008
stopping treatment
She'll be moving out of her apartment, so if you want to help with that, there will be opportunity over the next few weeks. If anyone has moving boxes laying about, we can use them--for now, we're just working on moving the complete works of Samuel Beckett to her new room, but later we'll be actually packing stuff to move out.
Sorry for the dull tone of this--we're heartbroken and exhausted, and I can't think of a better way to say it.
Sunday, April 20, 2008
like weather
Friday, April 18, 2008
now
Oona and I are still in New York--I got alarmed by the floatiness, I guess; it just seemed wrong to leave. We're staying in Brooklyn through the weekend, then moving in with Sarah till Friday and trying Operation Get Oona to Sleep in the Kitchen again. If anyone is up for staying with her in Sarah's East Village place some night so we can have a sister date and process a bit, please let me know. She actually sleeps at night now, hooray!
And for a bit of levity, here is a photo of Oona enjoying a very amazing pumpernickel bagel in Brooklyn today:
Wednesday, April 16, 2008
stable and holding
We were all at the hospital with her today: my Grampa, Clancy, Sarah and I. She had a radiation treatment (5th of 10) in the morning, and in the afternoon, Dr. P. came to talk to us. She said that Mom's condition is stable (up from critical and tenuous, two few days ago), but said that she'll be in the hospital for many days--at least over the weekend--while they get her breathing on her own. She currently has an oxygen mask, along with various breathing treatments.
They'll start physical therapy on her chest tomorrow, too, to loosen any mucous and keep yesterday's bronchoscopy from having to be repeated too soon. The tumor in her right lung has grown, but the fluid around her heart turned out to be a very small amount when they did an echocardiogram, not significant enough to need treatment. Dr. P is hopeful that we'll be able to start chemo a week after she's done with radiation, to keep the growth of the tumors in check.
So all in all, we got fair news today--she's not well, but she's not as bad as we thought. She has a wry sort of sassiness, these days, and isn't in too much pain. Oona and I will head home on Friday.
Tuesday, April 15, 2008
she's doing well
in bronchoscopy now
She's doing okay - spent the day with Clancy & Jennifer, and I got here around 4pm. She had a procedure earlier today that inserted some contraption into her veins and will hopefully prevent future blood clots. She's still using the heavy duty oxygen mask, and is pretty weak. But you'd be weak too if you hadn't eaten a scrap in more than 24 hours (no eating before bronchoscopies...them's the berries).
She was pretty tired before surgery - slept a bit while I watched, so that was good. Our Grandpa's here and o'course Jennifer and Oona. It's good to all be together. More updates soon.
Monday, April 14, 2008
a little more info
tenuous
Oh, and here's a photo of her "in happier times," with Clancy and Ida, mere days ago.
back in urgent care
Saturday, April 12, 2008
weekend off
Thursday, April 10, 2008
still tired
Monday, April 7, 2008
first round of new radiation
Saturday, April 5, 2008
home again home again lalala
Thursday, April 3, 2008
day of planning
The echo of Dr. Pietanza’s heels purposefully hitting the floor announced her arrival before she poked her head around the curtain. I think we all (Janet, Clancy, Sarah and Ben) held our breath as the long-awaited meeting got under way.
“Amazing” – there is simply no other word to describe Pietanza. She sat down on the bed and immediately took Janet’s hand and asked how she was feeling…. “Better,” was the answer offered up with a sense of certain, renewed energy.
A brief exchange was followed by a general overview: The cancer is now in the lining of the brain and there is a strong sense this is the cause of the nausea rather than post-chemo impact. Obviously, dealing with the brain spots and their effects is the first priority. In order to do that, the next step is a series of radiation treatments (10 doses over a period of about 2 weeks). This radiation precedes round two of chemo. This radiation will be ‘whole brain’ radiation which will deal not only with the three identified spots but also any other cancer cells that may be active in the brain lining (we liked this sentiment).
Knowing there were sheets of paper dripping with questions, Dr. P. decided to let the onslaught commence rather than continuing her monologue. And so we all began with our questions and she followed with the answers she had…
What’s the risk of radiation on the brain? Not much more risk than with the previous neck radiation she had on C2/C3 of the spine. Fatigue is likely and that varies by patient. There is limited risk of cognitive impairment but that is not likely and not a concern of Dr. P.
Her breathing is easier thanks to the nebulizer treatments. Is that something that can be continued at home? Yes (hooray!)… She will be sent home with a pipe-like treatment that will break-down the mucus and allow her wind passage to remain more comfortably open.
Why don’t we do chemo and radiation simultaneously? The combination would be too toxic. Chemo is more of a systemic treatment while the radiation is more ‘local’ in nature. Radiation allows the treatment of specific areas that need more immediate focus (i.e. the brain lining).
How fast is the cancer moving? Why were the brain spots not noticed before now? Are they new? This is hard to answer. The February MRI – not done by Sloan – may or may not have shown the spots. What we know is that the Tuesday MRI (done at Sloan) showed them and the nausea is further evidence of their presence so we’re going to deal with them immediately. We also know that per the last aggregate reading that the cancer is ‘stable’ meaning that it’s grown in some areas and recessed in others so no net increase. And, we know from the bronchoscopy that there is no further tumor encroachment so that’s good.
What has been the experience of other patients who have gotten whole brain radiation therapy? Again it varies but generally the cancer is immediately responsive. Fatigue will be the most negative side-effect and that varies by patient.
When we get to the second round of chemo is that typically better or worse than the first? The second round is typically better because we both have insights on how the patient reacts based on the first round and the body is more ready for the chemo based on the first experience. These things combined often means a better experience. The key is to communicate what Janet is experiencing so they can address those reactions. Dr. Pietanza stressed she felt the communications to date had been good and appropriate and that Janet should continue conveying exactly how she’s feeling so they can mitigate what they can.
How long between the end of radiation and the start of chemo? Dr. P and Janet decided that a one week break between the 10 doses of radiation and round two of chemo felt like the right amount of time based on the last go around (where they only allowed her body a break of 5 days).
Why radiation for the brain spots vs. chemo? Often times chemo does not go to the brain (especially the lining). This got a bit technical and scary… The lining can block out a lot of crap – kind of seems like its key job… The chemo will not have the necessary immediate impact on the brain spots that are needed right now. Radiation is a more locally focused treatment that will target and certainly impact those spots.
As this all progresses will we have the benefit of knowing when we’re near the end? Yes, we will.
We’re not at that point? NO, we are NOT at that point!
“And, those who do best have a fighting spirit, which Janet has,” Dr. Pietanza. And so, the much anticipated meeting came to a close with a solid plan of attack in place. Dr. Pietanza gave Janet a huge hug and Janet told her, “I feel so solid with you. I feel like I’m in the best possible hands…”
The radiation team will do their brain mapping today so the first radiation treatment can be given and forward progress can resume. And, Janet will return home this evening (pending that mapping). She’s breathing easier, she’s more hopeful, and she’s ready for the radiation treatment.
Wednesday, April 2, 2008
nice round head
Who knew she had such a lovely head? Tonight, our good friend Susannah brought clippers to the hospital and we had a lovely time shorning Mom's head, much to her delight. As you can see, she looks amaaaaaaazing. Are any of us surprised?
Tuesday, April 1, 2008
more info
worse
quick update
Monday, March 31, 2008
music as medicine
Sunday, March 30, 2008
electrolytes r us
Friday, March 28, 2008
a little clarification
Clancy and family made it from the Ohio-Indiana border to New Jersey with a completely hosed clutch, and then had to stop. There is some brave combination of trains and tow trucks happening around now, and we're all meeting in the morning if everything goes reasonably well. Dan and I and the girls fly back to San Francisco tomorrow night.
She's been feeling sort of awful since the day she came home from the hospital: throwing up at least once a day, and today she had a new pain, in her ribs. It's really tough to keep her hydrated, and I suspect that we're already falling behind on that. The question of the moment is whether to go through another round of chemotherapy, or to stop. On the one hand, stopping treatment feels like admitting defeat, facing death, saying goodbye. But, as mom says, "I want to live until I die." Her doctor really wants her to try at least one more round. The three kids will put heads together tomorrow morning and try to figure out what we all think--the final decision will of course be made by herself, and will likely happen next week, when she goes to see Dr. P again on Wednesday.
Thursday, March 27, 2008
stable disease
Today was a little tougher, in part we're sure because of how much she exerted herself (she was out of bed for like six hours! She ate a steak!). Hazel kisses are proving to be good medicine. Clancy and family arrive tomorrow sometime--they're on the road now, in their vegetable oil-converted Mercedes! Thanks so much to everyone for the good wishes.
Oh, and: Oona and I are going home with Dan and Hazel on Saturday, after all. I'll probably be back soon.
Wednesday, March 26, 2008
home again
Tuesday, March 25, 2008
housing and work
Monday, March 24, 2008
the time question
Janet and Sarah
Originally uploaded by jecaly
Things have just kicked into high existential gear around here. I saw Dr. P. and her nurse Maureen in the hallway of the hospital today and we had one of those conversations you click past on daytime TV, with me asking about whether we can know yet how well her body's responding to chemo and how long does she have, and the doctor telling me that she has it really bad, that the tumor from her right lobe is growing so fast that it's in her neck now, and that the weekend doctor (one of the top guys in his field, recommended to us by lots of people when they heard she would be seen at MSKCC) wants to stop chemotherapy. Dr. P. is very thorough and careful, though, and so she wants to do two more tests before we decide whether to continue treatment. Mom had the second lumbar puncture aided by x-ray today (they did a great job; she had no pain. Both Sarah and I were there, standing guard by the door), and I think she had a CT scan about an hour ago, with Sarah there.
I think we'll have the results pretty soon. If there are cancer cells in her spinal fluid, and/or evidence that the chemotherapy isn't doing much, they'll stop treatment. If there is evidence that it's helping, we may continue. Either way, Dr. P's assessment is "weeks, months."
Just so all you who love her know: she doesn't want to be kept alive by artificial means. She doesn't want to be resuscitated. If there is some chance that she'll have some semblance of her life back, she wants that and will suffer through unpleasantness for it, but if there isn't, she will stop treatment.
Yes, we're all freaking out. Clancy's leaving Wisconsin on Thursday; my dad's making plans to come out, Lindsay arrives late this week, and I don't know what we're doing but at least Oona and I will probably stay.
Friday, March 21, 2008
spinal tap
Oh, and they say she'll be there until at least Monday, now.
Thursday, March 20, 2008
hooray for salt water
Well, after a full day and then some in the hospital, we're no closer to knowing whether there's a tumor wrapped around the main artery to her brain, but she who was starting to seem very husk-like and frail looks, after untold bags of saline plus some magnesium and potassium, like a plant that has been watered. there was no vomiting today, no as-needed pain medication for the neck, and she ate three full meals. That's THREE. FULL. MEALS. For the last few days, five string beans and three tomatoes have felt like a major victory, so this is very good news. Thanks to all who have offered to watch Oona, and thanks especially to Leda and Liz, who took care of her for so long today!
Sarah's last day of work was today, so we'll be at the hospital in shifts, trying to catch the elusive neurologist and to be there when she gets discharged. Stay tuned, sweet people, and we'll keep you posted.
morning news
Wednesday, March 19, 2008
i hate today
We were home for only a little while when Maureen, her doctor's nurse, called to tell us that the blood work came back showing that Mom is severely dehydrated and has low sodium levels (translation: not enough eating and drinking, too much throwing up) and she might want us to go in for fluids. Mom takes this as a challenge, drinking three glasses of water and eating more than she has in the past two days. Maureen calls back: we have to go in. The doctor agrees that those levels combined with the fall are just too much. Mom is devastated, a little, but agrees and we get ready to go.
So, to make a long story shorter: she's there now, having had one bag of fluids and getting one and a half more. She might stay the night. They did another CT scan of her head though, concerned about the wobbliness and falling, and it came back fine again.
Monday, March 17, 2008
chemotherapy makes you sick
Sunday, March 16, 2008
today
But she had a rough night last night, and felt so poorly this morning that she wasn't able to get up to eat and take her meds, and clueless me didn't realize that if she doesn't answer the phone it means go there now, so she didn't get her pain medication or steroid pill or the other three she's supposed to take with breakfast until 2 hours later than normal. Bad nurse. She also has a little fever today--100.5, so borderline for alerting her doctor, but I called anyway--we'll probably take her in if it goes much higher, but I really don't want to drag her to Urgent Care to get another x-ray, blood work and other tests unless it's really warranted--she's just not up for a cab ride right now, and needs sleep more than anything, I think. She and Oona are napping together now; for a bit I couldn't tell whose breathing I was hearing.
Thursday, March 13, 2008
first dose of chemo
We arrived at Sloan around 8am for Mom's 8:15 appointment with Dr. Pietanza. Our friend Susannah (daughter of Gina Karlsson who used to babysit Clancy and Jennifer and certifiable rockstar in her own right) joined us and was there all day with us - made a huge difference. They took Mom's vitals. She has dropped more weight, which we all kind of knew, and her blood pressure is a bit low, but otherwise she is doing well. Dr. Pietanza filled us in again on what to expect with the chemo (hair loss, some nausea, possible pain in the bones and joints, fatigue). It turns out that Mom will have treatment once every THREE weeks, not once every two weeks. She also listened to Mom's lungs and said that they sound much better now than the last time she saw her - mid-February. Mom will have another appt with Dr. Pietanza in two weeks.
We went back to the waiting room for a bit after the exam, and then we were brought back to the "chemotherapy suite" - a suite indeed! We had our own little room - given the option, Mom wisely chose a bed over a chair - with a lovely sliding door and little wood cutout window frames, plants in the window. It was just a really nice room, serene, pleasant, and as Susannah put it "like a Japanese hotel room".
We met Sarah, Mom's fabulous nurse, who is my exact age, super sweet and really bright. Sloan makes an effort to hook each patient up with the same nurse for each treatment, so that's kinda cool. I like the consistency. She did a "teaching session" with us, talked more about the side effects, discussed the different anti-nausea medications, and also went over the plan to decrease the steroids. It looks like Mom will be off steroids completely by early April.
So then Sarah started an IV after finding an appropriate vein (good times!), and then administered a saline solution to Mom along with some "pre-meds"to help prep her veins and system for the chemo. Susannah and I jumped out at that point to grab some lunch, and Sarah waited for our return before she began the chemo. So at about 2pm they started giving Mom the first part of the chemo cocktail, which was Taxol. At the start of each chemo treatment, there will always be two nurses in the room: one to check Mom's info & the drug info on a chart and the other to verify that the same exact info is on the drug itself, before administering it. Pretty cool.
So the Taxol took about 3 hours, during which time Mom ate lunch (Sloan provides lunch when there's a long treatment...she had a cobb salad and ate every last bite. I took a picture of the empty container and will try to post it later!). She also slept for about 1.5 hours of it, which was totally amazing and wonderful. Sarah stayed with us for the first 15 minutes of the Taxol part, because she said if Mom were going to have a bad reaction it would happen then. She slept and ate so needless to say, she was fine. After the Taxol they gave her a bit more saline, followed by the Carboplatin, which took about 30 minutes. We all applauded when she finished the Carboplatin - first treatment DONE!
I wrote out a new chart for Mom so she knows which drugs to take when, and so far so good. She had a little urpiness but was mainly just tired after we left. She had dinner, went to sleep, and successfully took her meds this morning.
All is well.
Tuesday, March 11, 2008
good days and bad
Sunday, March 9, 2008
radiation finished and clancy visit
Mom had her last radiation appointment on Friday morning. So we are done with radiation for the foreseeable future. Clancy's leaving on Monday morning after a week of help, music, and lots of construction! Thank you Clancy!! He rearranged Mom's apartment, and with the help of Mom's friend Skyler: built a shelf and extension for her desk (including a spot for her typewriter), put up a high shelf, and added to the nook-feel of the kitchen area by adding a few shelves there. The place has been transformed into what Mom calls her "hobbit house."
Friday, March 7, 2008
herself
poem about mom
JANET IS SO NEW YORK
Janet is so New York she keeps her compassion in her shoe just in case someone tries to rob her of it.
Janet’s hair is as shiny and black as the molding around rehearsal space doors.
Janet’s hello comes at your head like a huge sandwich in a lunch hour deli.
Janet’s soul is a charming efficiency with a galley kitchen and a Murphy bed, it is rent controlled and you cannot have it at any price.
Janet has shoes that are taxi cab yellow and stop suddenly for no reason.
Janet is so New York that her pin number is -- a-five- six- seven- eight.
At night, Janet snoozes on her window sill, wearing neon pajamas while a sax player lies in her bathtub playing her dreams out.
Janet knows why homeless people- who have nothing - have dogs.
Janet is so New York, her thoughts travel on foot and carry water bottles.
There are many living stories in Janet’s naked head.
Thursday, March 6, 2008
appt with Dr. Ho
Dr. Ho is so sweet and direct and caring. I really dig her. And Mom does too. So the last radiation treatment is happening tomorrow morning, but Dr. Ho said the effects of radiation will be felt for awhile after that, so that's good. Hopefully Mom's neck pain will soon be a distant memory for all of us!
Since radiation treatment ends tomorrow, going forward Mom will be primarily in the care of Dr. Piatanza.
It's so great to have Clancy in town. He's really helping Mom and I both slow down a bit and take a breath. He's just such a rock too - I have to say, it's nice to lean. And he has rearranged Mom's apartment so she now has a bona fide kitchen "nook" and easy access to her computer and desk. Yay! We also got a clamp light for her at the hardware store yesterday so now it's not such a dark cave in there (although Mom's a total cavedweller!).
She's not 100% on email just yet, but hopefully she will be able to at least read emails soon. Meanwhile, keep those calls coming, people!
Tuesday, March 4, 2008
a little venting
Sunday, March 2, 2008
my tidbits
Her pain was actually much better yesterday - actual periods of sitting up without pain. My friend Leslie is in town (used to live in New York, LOVES Mom) and we hung out with Mom all afternoon, gave her a pedicure and changed her sheets. That was all in the midst of many many phone calls, each of which Mom thoroughly dug. She's really loving all of the human contact these days, so don't be afraid to call her.
Her spirits are in really good shape too, I have to say. She's very zen about this whole thing - really wanting to fight it but also accepting that this is the situation now...as a social worker I met with last week put it, "the new normal." Clancy tomorrow - yay!
Saturday, March 1, 2008
squamous
Thursday, February 28, 2008
Doctor sketches
Here are the before and after sketches that Dr. Park made of mom's lung and trachea after the surgery, to show Sarah. To just quickly summarize (hopefully correctly from my phone conversation with Sarah), they are "giving up" on the top right lobe, but they hope that the removal of the part of the tumor that was blocking airflow into the lower right lobe, plus the stent, will improve her breathing by a lot. Sarah reports that mom's "rattle" is gone today, so that's great news.
Thanks to all for your offers of help and loving wishes. I'm happy to report that we found a place to stay in Manhattan (thanks, Amanda!) for a couple of weeks, so we'll be heading out again the second week of March. Yay.
Wednesday, February 27, 2008
She came out of recovery succesfully
Out of surgery - tumor hacked away at - stent in place
I spoke to Dr. Park, the doctor who performed the bronchoscopy, and he said that Mom did very well in surgery and that they were able to remove part of the tumor blocking the upper lobe of her right lung (don't I sound so medically knowledgeable?). He also found some specks on her trachea that he said would probably have developed into cancer so he lasered those suckers and they are OUTTA THERE.
He decided to insert a stent just outside the upper right lobe in order to prevent the cancer from expanding into the lower right lung or elsewhere (something which would result once again in labored breathing). I asked him about the possibility of stent migration and he said the chances are very slim because the airways just below where the stent resides are smaller than the stent itself, and stents tend to migrate downstream, so we should be good.
He said she may cough up some mucous and blood today, but said that's totally normal. She should be fine for radiation tomorrow morning.
The neck pain has been pretty excruciating today and I'm a little worried because she hasn't eaten since midnight (surgeon's orders) and hasn't taken pain medication since about 11am, so basically she will come out of recovery hungry and in pain - not fun! But hopefully we can take care of both issues right away. The radiation hasn't exactly kicked in yet, but the nurses I've talked to say that it usually takes a few treatments, so I'm hopeful that she will be in way way less pain by the weekend.
Tuesday, February 26, 2008
roto rooter
Second radiation went well today, but the pain is a lot worse.
Monday, February 25, 2008
First round of radiation done!
Friday, February 22, 2008
Radiation delayed until Monday
Tattoos, needles, scalpels and radiation
Mom's getting her first dose of radiation today, in about 20 minutes (at 3pm EST). At her planning appointment yesterday she got some small dots tattooed on her neck and shoulders, so that they can direct the radiation to the exact right spot and minimize damage to other tissue. For those who were horrified by this image, you'll be glad to hear that she doesn't have to wear a face mask--just a little chin strap.
Today's other big news is that they have decided to put a stint into her lung next Wednesday, to make her breathing easier. This is great news, as we were thinking that they would treat that with more radiation or just wait for the chemo to do its thing. Hooray for mechanical solutions. So the two things that are bothering her the most--her neck pain and her labored breathing--are being treated first.
She also has a new blood thinning medication (to treat the blood clot in her leg), that she must inject daily. Whee.
We are making plans to get out to New York again sometime soon. Anyone want to do a New York-San Francisco apartment trade?
Thursday, February 21, 2008
Bone scan done - prep today - radiation tomorrow
Tuesday, February 19, 2008
quick update
This week, that will be: a bone scan on Wednesday, a planning session with the radiology oncologist (there's probably another "ogical" in there somewhere, forgive me) on Thursday, and her first radiation session on Friday. She'll continue to have radiation for 10 (business) days in a row, and then will commence chemotherapy, once every three weeks.
More soon!
Friday, February 15, 2008
Sloan Kettering = Rolls Royce of cancer care
- oxycodone for pain
- steroids to take down the swelling in the neck/kill the wheezing
- antibiotics to counteract the chemo's pending effects on the immune system (good cells and bad cells all go out together)
- anti-nausea pills
- cough-suppressant (major)
- and ya know...laxatives